离开前的星期天

今天我买了好多的薯片给我的朋友，梁先生与靓小姐就来与我拿，然后我们就聊了好久，很高兴他们能够开解我这头“牛”，给我很有用的欠告。虽然有很多事情我都是知道的了，但从别人口中说出来时，我还是比较愿意接受的。当然今天的谈话让我轻松了好多，这就是朋友的力量，我不需要你给我解就方法，我只是要你们的陪伴与加油，事情的发生并不在我们的控制之下，能够做的就是不要想太多了。。。

Chow Kim Vui

Chow is my palapes mate when i joined this society during first year in University of Malaya. Actually, we were in the same practicum when study at KMNS. He is a very special fellow because he do not close either chinese, malay or indian. He is the one thrown the racist barrier and equalize all the peoples.Besides, he is a perfect minded people, he done everythings full strengthly.This kind of attitude surely can't find in mine.However, some people are misunderstanding him. Actually, he is a very simple people. Food is his favourite. So, we always have the same topic to talk to. Unfortunately, he is a muslim, so he can't enjoy the "non-halal" food with me.

I knew him deeply after he back from his Industrial Training at Miri (after he converted to Muslim). He became more mature or called not so mental when back from Miri. He tried to approach all of us and understand us. I appreciated this, at least, he initiate to open his mind and accept us as his friends after some unhappy incident occur. After that, we always had the gathering or activities together and be a good friends among three of us (included Leong Chee Onn).

花果山之旅

This is the unknown time i had trip with leng (soo ching), leong and liping during this semester. I appreciated their affords and accompanies. This may the last trip i had been with them before i go for work.

The trip was fun and enjoyable for me, but not challenge. haha...This is the second time i camping at the summit of mountain, same as previous, i slept like a dead people when going to the camp. Other peoples were not sleep well as me. I am the people who eat a lot, sleep a lot and contribute the less, wahaha...I enjoy the cold weather there, enjoy the friendship we developed.

I had been through something new, some leeches bite and "drink" my "oily" blood. This is my first time. I never bite by the leeches before even though i went to so many mountain or river area. My blood look like the water flow out from the spoilt water tap, can not be stopped when removed the leeches by salts. I think more than 1 liter blood losses from my body, haha, this is a joke.

At the next day, we went to Bukit Tinggi which Japanese and French style building could be found there. Nevertheless, that is not so attract our eye since some of us were tired, haha...Finally, i would like to say thanks to those accompany me for this trip.

My Nephew

Is he cute? He is my cousin's son. I love him so much, even though he is scared of me, maybe of my size, haha. His name is Henry, I went to my autie's house when i back to my hometown. I don't like much pets, plants, but i like kids...

OUTBAC

This is the third time i came to OUTBAC (Outdoor Broga Adventure Camp) as a part time instructor. A lot of activities we do here such as flying fox, rock climbing,obstacle, kayaking, fishing, jungle trekking (Broga hill)...Even though the pay is not attractive for me, but i just came here and have a rest, play the games i never play before, it is quite fun. Meet some friends here, doing exercise here,the most important...

DR. Yap is the camp manager here, he is the palapes also but somehow his attitude make people feel uncomfortable, but overall still ok for me because i have meet with the people who are worst than him. Joshua is the pprofessional instructor, he knew a lot about the training things, just some time will membebel...Ah hen (Richard) is the UKM undergraduate student and work temporary for 1 month, but he just leaving because qurrel with boss. Lian is the Myanmar people and be the full time here but he will "immigrate" to US with his family once approve by the relevent agencies. Liping and Cecilia are my ex-coursemates and they recommended me to join this. Besides,Uncle Billy and Samuel are the fellows that i never meet here even we are the colleagues, haha...

This is a good place to go for the peoples got nothing to do on weekend, just like me. However, this may the last time i came here, because i will start my first job after graduate and that is far and inconvinient for me to come here any more and i also try to avoid somethings else.

When I was young

My kindergarden graduation, am i cute that time.

The way i have to go

Finally finished my four and half years university life, feel nothing about the course, but feel to these peoples who accompany me from time to time. If anyone ask me whether i regret because extend for one semester or not, definitely i will say "NO". Because in this particular period, i gained somethings that i never face previously either happy or sad things. The 9th semester in University Malaya is the most enjoyable in my university life, only one subject to go through, work as Research Assistant (not much contribute to the project, haha), packing and arrange the flower bouquet till the mid night (i feel i am the superman that time), eat a lot of delicious foods, a lot of sing k...

Then, i came to the end of semester, and i had to choose the way that i have to going through after this, stay or left? After 2 weeks suffering with the decision making, i get the answer, definetely this is not the best option for me, nevetherless, at least, i took my first step. Things came so fast, just like a flash, 3 resumes sent out, 2 interviews to go, 3 offers given, 1 job to take. I rather suffer myself than make other people unhappy, hope i will be happy after i left here.

Aziz says"life is not easy, but we have to go through". Ya, he is right. Instead of stubborn somethings useless, better i doing somethings good and carry happy to our own. Some ideas or targets are aimed by me for next few years, even it is hard to complete it but i will try my best. It is terrible ridiculous, i only knew what i want at the last semester.

My Big Boss

My boss always though me that i have to chase the things that i wish to, whatever the things is so hard or even impossible to be, just target and complete it. But he don't know or can't understand that not all things will pay back when you put the efforts to. Perhaps i am not do the best.

妈妈的手艺

我最爱的辣椒蛤
油腻但美味的卤肉
Petai 炒虾米，又辣又臭
矮瓜炒长豆

每回回到家中，我一定会享用母亲准备的美食。而且，还是狂吃的那一种，哈哈，所以我做再多的运动都瘦不下来。我总感觉妈妈的手艺是最棒的，虽然有些人会认为，妈妈煮得很油腻与重口味，但我就是爱，哈哈，大不了跑多几圈UM咯。

14th November 2009 (Saturday)

My last exam paper in the UM will be held on next Monday (16th Nov 2009). So, I got to study hard now since I only read one time for Mid Term Test previously. Some of friends asked me to score A in this semester, because only one subject taken in this semester, but I don’t think that I could get A. If not, the world will be unfair, haha. But the most important, I did not intended to get A. I emphasized attitude and performance were more realistic rather than results, nevertheless, results is a key that step in to comfortable circumstance initially.

A lot of things have to consider and done after step to the “real world”, money, family… But all this could be solved if following a well develop system (taught by someone experienced and I agreed with him). Firstly, I have to create or planning a system for my own, for any perspective (car, house, healthy…), then, developing it, monitoring it, gaining and enjoying it. That is a great and useful lesson for me. Nevertheless, I still not sure with my future, I should fit a life objective or mission which I could reached. For instance, a short term (2 years) and long term (5 years) planning or goals should be created, so I can know what I should achieved in the future.

安利

刚刚去了安利的一个讲座，如以往一版，依然是那么的振奋人心。演讲者依旧那么的激烈与亢奋，带领我们去到他们的奋斗史，进入他们现在“富有”的世界。带我来的朋友依旧滔滔不竭的与我分享这一切，有些商业腔了，现在还没想开始这样的生活，有可能做工以后便会像他们一样了。哈哈。。。钱钱钱钱。。。

抉择

人生有太多的抉择，事业，家庭，爱情，有情等等。抉择取决于“吉屎” （gut），随后才是能力（competency）再加上我们不能掌控的天时，地理与人和。买车子，房子，结婚生子，都要好好规划，但最重要的是责任，没有责任，再好的规划与环境都是牛屎（bullshit）。
我接下来是要找一份我喜欢与胜任的工作，Project Engineer是我短期的目标，它的工作性质是我所要得，因为我是爱跑动的人，见见客户。接下来又可能与朋友搞搞小生意， 因为还是自己的生意比较有冲干与赚很多的钱，钱喔！谁不要。在长远的就没想太多了，但还是要让自己赚的安心，花得开心。
巨蟹座的我，家在我心中占了很大的空间，希望能给家人他们想要的生活，尤其是母亲，虽然现在的我还不能实现这一切，但我相信我能够在30岁以前做到的。家人当然也包括爱人，希望我爱的人能够与自己一起打拼建立自己的家园，能够给与她幸福与一切。
毕业后，就要好好规划自己的未来了，错！正确来讲，我想在就因该要想了。其实一直以来，我都在想着这一切，但却没有多少人知道，有可能我并没有太多的朋友，或是我又太多的酒肉朋友，也有可能我不喜欢与别人分享这些事情。想着几时要买车，购屋…好多东西要想喔。。。

可悲的马来西亚

马来西亚现在的局势自能有一个字来形容，那就是，乱。真是他娘的乱！党与党之间的斗争，族群与族群之间的摩擦，权利与金钱的诱惑等等。每天一打开报章都是政党与政治人物的把戏，不是D党呛M党，就是金钱政治，贪污，道德，不然就是是为了些芝麻绿豆的小事喋喋不休。自308海啸后，马来西亚的新闻内容就有如山洪爆发似的，源源不绝，一片狼藉，涂炭生灵，一发不可收拾。其实，这些问题早就存在，只是被某些有心人扫进地毯下，与当时的人民没有现有的管道，来阅读较有“新闻自由”的文章，所以才不小心成为井底之蛙。

现在一切的“苏州史”一一曝光于眼前，利弊都有。利的是，人民的觉醒，为自己争取所该有的；弊的是，有些唯恐天下不乱的有心人，想在这非常时期，在那搞风搞雨，把事情舞得更糟膏。而大多数的人民都会被他们骗得团团钻（包过我自己），我已不太相信任何一份报章，平面杂志，电视台。。。因为我都不懂到底是不是真的。哇！马来西亚真可悲呀！

补习

又是一个无聊的下午，原有的补习因学生诸多的借口而泡汤了。下周二就是他人生第一个最重要的考试，小六检定考试。我原先也很紧张他的成绩难登大雅之堂，但他多次的懒惰，也造成我意识阑珊，不愿多加询问与努力。他是我的第一位学生，很多的第一次都给了他。哈哈。第一次，带着战战兢兢的心情到他的府上，第一次，拿藤条打他，骂他。。。第一次，叫他围着客厅跑步。。。第一次体会当老师的心情与压力。。。但这一切都将在下周考试后结束，希望他能及格全部的科目。那我就无憾了，但机会率并不高，阿拉保佑他（因为他是拜阿拉的）。这将使我无聊透顶的生活更上一层楼，哈哈（真无奈！！）

我的父亲

二十三年了， 我不懂我的父亲。在印象中，父亲没有正式抚育过我。他是个很模糊的人物，他只在非常重要的时刻才会出现，就好像妹妹的毕业典礼。从小到大，很多同乡的朋友都会询问我有关我的父亲，但每一次我都语塞，无法从口中形容我自己的父亲，只好随便敷衍一下，直到现在我的副教授也会问我有关的话题。
从母亲的口中，父亲给我的印象即是个受不了苦的人，也是个酗酒成性的男人。记忆中，他只是一位每个月会给母亲数百零吉家用的陌生人。记忆中，他没抱过，责骂过，也没鞭打过我与妹妹，他是多么陌生的一个父亲啊！但我心中并没有责怪他的意思，毕竟是他把我带到这个世界的，只是他并没有尽该有的责任。
最近，看到父亲的时候，觉得他变得好老，好憔悴，好提不起劲。母亲与父亲就像火星撞地球似的(火星=母亲，地球=父亲)，母亲会唠叨个不停，而父亲也只好静静的在一旁，无言以对。但我还是希望在他们有生之年好好相处。
不管如何，不完整的家庭背景才有今天开朗的我。从中学开始便打工，期望减轻母亲的负担，多年的经验，让我知道人心的险恶，当然也有快乐与高兴的时候。所以我从不希望会跟任何人有过节，因为覆水难收，有时候被朋友欺负与占便宜，我都不计较，因为太计较会使双方面不好过，我珍惜我现在有的一切。

减肥

是时候要减肥了，再胖下去，自己也不愿照镜子了，裤子一天一天的窄下去，肚腩越来越大，开什么玩笑！

She

She resigned from the previous job without informed any friends (the friends that i know). She back with in a relationship (noticed from friendster). A lot of question came out in the heart but since i am only a busybody, i got no right to ask further. Hope she get what she want, whether in realationship or career, hope she all the best.

2007年2月7日

中船人志强笔于2007年2月7日凌晨0038时
凌晨0030H明天就是这个学期的第一个中考，虽然还又好多的书没读，但在这个夜深人静的时刻，心情特别的平静，听着MP3传来阵阵的音乐，心情也随着摇摆！在进入UM的这段期间，很高兴认识到PALAPES这一班知己，看着他们送来的贺年卡，觉得十分的高兴和窝心。屈指一算，认识他们这群‘难兄难姐’(因为我在里边是第二年轻的！嘿嘿！) 也不过是一年半的时间，彼此的感情却很融洽，亲密。真正和你们混熟的日子因该在我们CADET的那一次航海吧 (SANDAKAN FOMDEX) ！这一的功劳因该归功于我们时常在地上滚来滚去吧 (PUNISHMENT) 呵呵！虽然我们来自不同的地方，不同的家庭背景，不同的身形 (不要怀疑，说的就是小弟我自己) ，却能在UM的ROTU NAVY聚在一块儿，分享着ROTU NAVY 带来的困扰，喜悦，悲伤与快乐。彩荃说的对，我们只剩下一年多的时间便要分道扬镳了，阵阵的心酸涌上心头，再也不能在地上滚了！所以我希望我们这一群“粉肠” 能一起快快乐乐的走下去，熬下去，不管快乐的，刺激的，或则不好的，伤心的，我们都能一起分享，一起完成吧！因为我们是一TEAM的！！！

Alumni night

昨天，参加化学工程系的Alumni night， 是个很好的交流平台，让我们与毕业的学长们分享各自的状况，谈谈他们的工作经验，说说我们的学习生活。这是我参加了历届中，最为成功与开心的一次，因为目的终于达成了。没有酒店的豪华和美味的食物，但比较轻松自在。

她

今天，我再次与她见面了。她依然那么光彩，那么有魅力。还没见到她之前，以为自己可以很坦然地面对她，但在与她见面的那一霎那，我瓦解了。
小背心加短裤再配上她最喜欢的球鞋呈现出她活泼动人的性格。她有些改变了，她变得较为大胆，一口气领取出大量的现金购买她要的衣饰与保养品。她依旧那么的坦率与大方，给我的感觉好像一位大姐姐带一位小弟弟，疼喜我，照顾我。
美丽的她，无论配搭任何的衣物，在我眼里都是很美丽的。今天，她在我面前掉泪了，因为懵懂的她，不知道原来纹眼线是很痛的。这是她第一次在我面前掉眼泪。她陪我用过了午餐与晚餐，其实我只是想要拥有更多的时间与她在一起。她还是不喜欢别人为她操劳（除了替她提包包与购物袋）。
在她说再见的时候，我便立刻与她招手，那便是我们再次分开的时候。够了，半年见一次面对我来说已是上天对我的眷念了。只是希望下次看到她的时候，我会更成熟。